34 Weeks

I'm struggling ya'll.

There's so much they don't tell you about pregnancy. Watching other women do it, I've always thought of pregnancy as.. sweet, beautiful, and even glamorous! (I know, what a dummy..) Women make pregnancy look easy, but sometimes it's NOT easy. Sometimes, it's downright hard!

I had a shower on Saturday, which was so so fun and very sweet. I have really great friends. Afterwards Ray and I went with my sweet photographer friend Christina to the Phoenician Resort in Scottsdale to take some maternity photos! It was such a great day, and I felt so good! I had plenty of energy, and even though it was hot out, I didn't mind one bit.
And then on Sunday, I. Was. Exhausted. Like, can't-get-out-of-bed-to-get-to-the-couch tired. I felt so awful and worn out and hardly did a thing. Monday was even worse. I went to work not feeling very well, and by 10 a.m. I melted into an emotional breakdown of EPIC proportions. I was crying at my desk for no reason at all, and just couldn't get it together. I left work and went to Ray's parents' house to nap and chill out (there are still men at my house working in our kitchen...), and never felt better all day.

The pain in my ribs is only getting worse, and spreading, so I'm not sleeping much and just don't feel well pretty much all the time. I'm trying to make the best of it, but it's hard to be happy and upbeat when you're in constant pain. My poor husband. I'm trying to remember to keep my joy at the forefront of my mind, and I just keep telling myself that soon, really soon, I won't be pregnant any more and I'll have a sweet little boy to love. But sometimes I give in to misery, and that makes me feel guilty, which only hurts my mood even more. I guess motherhood is a delicate thing, wrought with emotions, and not for the faint of heart.

Anyway, enough complaining. I only have 6 weeks left till our due date, and that's really no time at all. I have the sweetest husband who surprises me with kindness every day. I have really wonderful friends who do things like throw me parties to celebrate my little one, and shower me with gifts to help me feel prepared. I have support from so many amazing moms who are so open and willing to share their wisdom. I have so much to be thankful for and to be happy about! I can handle a little (not so little) pain. I'm stronger than it is, and I'll get through this tough time. And I know that once I have my little monkey in my arms, I'll forget all about the pain and discomfort, and it will all have been worth it, a million times over.

Here's a little preview from our Maternity shoot, thanks to our dear friend Christina at Christina Lafferty Photography! (This will have to serve as my 8 months photo, since our kitchen is still in shambles, and so is the rest of the house..)